EVE OF RAMADAN


The thought has been moving around in my head for the past many days. I kept erasing it again and again thinking that everything will be alright and it is going to be easy when the time arrives. But today, when I heard the thakbeer echoing from a distant masjid which should have been the beehive of activities this eve, I couldn’t hold on any longer. I knew this was not going to be like that of old times. I broke down. Tears of pain and grief came streaming down and I had no words left to motivate myself. Sitting down before my PC, I wrote.

Today I realized how beautiful the Ramadan of the past 19 years had gone by. Today I realized how blessed I was to have been in a complete family for Ramadan. Today the absence of a member makes me realize the value of relationships, no matter the frustrating times we shared. Today I realized how happy the times were, year before year, when I looked forward to the congregational prayers at the masjid, when the masjid was full of life. Today I even realized how a small cup of steaming kaava after the prayers was refreshing like no other drink. Today I realized how productive the classes of quran we sisters had during the month. Today I had many more realizations. Yes, life has witnessed change in a way that nobody ever dreamt would happen. What more do we need to realize the power of the creator?

On deep reflection, I felt my mind asking me that how can you just let go of the string of hope like that? With news of people around the world suffering, how can I not realize that I have things that I should really be grateful for? After all, I have a bed I can stretch myself on when I want to. I have people around me whom I can confide to. I have food I can eat when hunger creeps in. I have health that I hope will help me fast during these days of heat. And above all, I have my creator who knows what I don’t know and whose mercy keeps me moving on in this journey of life.

Yes, this Ramadan, things are going to be different. But that teaches us a lot of things for future right?

Lesson #1 Take nothing for granted
Lesson #2 Things change within a flick of a second 
Lesson #3 Always look beneath you, not above you.

May this Ramadan be a month that we remember all the little goodness’s that we are blessed with! Aameen! The only thing we can do is pray for and hope for whatever that is best for us ! Rest is not in our hands!

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